End of March.

Its been a while.
Lately i've been confused by my own feeling.
Yes, im still stuck on that someone.
Day by day, all i can think about is how to make up with him,
how to get him back,
how to confront my feelings towards him.

BUT.....

I'm scared.

What if he turn me down?
What if he had someone else already?
What if he dont have feelings for me anymore?

And if I dont tell him,

What if he still want me?

What if he's actually waiting for me to make the first step?

What if? what if what if?

These days, i hadn't been sleeping.

And the truth is, I'm waiting for him to online on his FB chat box.

yes, i do have his number,

but i dont know why, i dont have the courage to text him,

moreover to give him a call.

These feeling sucks!

Almost 2 weeks, I sleep at 4am and woke up at 2pm.

My eyes are tired but my mind couldn't stop thinking.

I know i had told myself a thousand times to get over him,

to forget the past, to move on....

But again and again,

I keep on falling for the same person.

Over and over again..

I know it kinda sounds like I'm desperate.

Well, maybe I am..

Im just afraid to lose someone i really2 love.

I hope i can get rid of my own egos.

I hope there's still light for me and him..

They said; you never try, you never know.

I wish by the time i found the courage to tell him the truth, it wouldn't be too late.

Or else, I'm so gonna regret my own stupidity for letting him go on the first place.